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Toneisha Colson Erin Young Mentor PLA Losing A Child: Saying Goodbye to My Daughter Pain, so much pain I thought my appendix had ruptured, I was screaming and crying, so my father rushed me to John T. Mather Hospital, Port Jefferson, NY. I was rushed in the emergency room, the Emergency Room doctor examined me and then there was a flurried of activity in the room, nurses everywhere, doctors, noise and here I am 19 years old screaming in pain. The doctor looked at me with gloves on and said " Toneisha your about to deliver." I then said "Deliver what?" He then replied " A baby". And my life changed forever. It was 13 months of happiness, pain and despair all at the same time. You see my daughter Beverlyrose Lonette Colson was born unexpectedly and on Monday October 3 rd , 1991 she took her last breath in my arms and my heart broke and that was when I was angry with God and devastated. I did not know I was pregnant until I gave birth then. I was a new mom my parents were new grandparents and I was winging it for a little over a year. There are no instructions on how you grieve when you lose your child. This was what my uncle told me was an "Out of order " death, parents are not supposed to bury their children. When she passed away I needed help. I had to speak to therapists and doctors and even my grandmother who had lost a child when he was ten months . I took no classes I just asked my mother, aunts and grandmother on how to deal with a baby girl. My grandmother had ten children and seventeen grandchildren so she was my go too person when it came to questions. Toneisha Colson Erin Young PLA A